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Amy Samantha
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Transgender, male to female. I'll never live the life I desire, and I am forced to accept it, under laws that allow criminals to abuse me.

To Dana

Journal Entry: Fri Jul 18, 2014, 4:04 PM
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: Rick Springfield-Jessie's Girl
  • Watching: Under The Dome, Young and the Restless
  • Eating: cookie
  • Drinking: chocolate milk

This is the last thing I will say about, or to you.


Congrats on becoming a Marine. Excelsior.

I once thought about joining the military; I'm glad I didn't because it would have been a serious error.

I tend to lean against those whom I get an immediate feel I can trust them, and 99.999999% of the time, it works against me horribly.

This was true in your case, Ted's, and many others.

Vivian...though I actually tried to not lean on her, I did and I paid for it.

But she paid a larger price; her life.

A memory of that night returned to me recently.

But I won't discuss it any further; it is a moot point because she is dead and rehashing the possibilities, the what-ifs and whatnot only hurts more.

But moving on? Maybe if I got closure. Or if I died.

Or if by some miracle, some Altarian miracle, love found me once again...

...As I thought I had with you, but either I pushed too hard or was just too desperate (or whatever the cause), and you threw me to the hungry, rabid wolves as does every one else I once thought I could trust.

My only qualm is why everyone blames me. I mean, all the time, and of course it isn't humanly possible anyway (to be at fault for everything).

Well, before this gets too long, and you get all pissy and start screaming at me because I piss you off just because I'm me, I'll end this by saying

'If it comes from the heart, then it matters not if anyone disagrees because it is yours and yours alone, unless you choose to share it with someone you trust, that you love.'

Well, that is all. Goodbye.


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Kezmayu Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I don't know whether you're still alive or not, but wherever you are, whatever you're doing, I hope everything is much better; that of what you've always, truly deserved. You've always been inspiring, strong, and stood your ground and didn't cheat your way out, even though you knew you could do it to help you while staying alive...You will be missed, honored, loved; I can only hope now that you actually are doing much better, feeling much more happy.. and may I be happy with you if you are feeling a genuine happiness. I just want you to know that I always did care; I never stopped caring, and I'm sorry I couldn't do more for you and be there for you as much as you needed...we ALL failed you, and for that, I am very, very sorry for being a part of that...
If you actually did it, I can only hope you're in a better place, never to be in pain again...though it hurts, I am happy for you. :rose: R.I.P...for all of eternity. :heart: 
deathroseorchid Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I guess we will see if anyone responds...
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fantasylover100 Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the watch
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EricAMBM Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2014   Writer
thanks for the fav!
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wolfgurl1999 Featured By Owner Jun 3, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks so much for the watch!!! *hugs* 
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