I hear this all the time.
'You should look at the positive things in life...'
Right. I wonder why you don't see I'm trying!??
Maybe it is because that when I do, I often times wander into the fantasy parts of a positive world.
That isn't something I can really control, because I often think about these things in my daydreams, and daydreaming, fantastic go hand in hand, usually.
Of course, if I put my mind to it, I can do anything, am I hearing this right?
There is such a thing as mental limits. Physical, mental, emotional limits are all a part of being human, and for me, my mental limits were set low, very low, from the beginning. That also applies to my emotional limits.
But just because I know this to be true, doesn't make me any more believable.
So, why can't I have a more positive outlook on life?
My eyes were opened to corruption when I was young; it is an undo-able act that has basically set my life, and my future with or without my consent.
I see evil and greed everywhere. I cannot unsee it. I still do not know why this happened to me and not the next kid, but I cannot do anything about it. At least, not as a mortal.
As an individual transcending mortality, I could change a lot with just slight of hand.
So, my ultimate goal is to do just that. Not necessarily become immortal, but to become an individual above mortality, one with power and capability to change a lot with little to no effort (metaphorically).
Is it possible? Hell, any mortal can transcend mortality. But to attain this does require a commitment to the Altarian Resolve.
I made this commitment long ago, but the facts are facts. The human race holds me back, as does Fate (entity not destiny).
Until I can break free of the grasp of doom, my power and ability will remain locked away.
I cannot do this alone, I realize. Vivian realized it also. She paid her life for trying to break me free, and I'm suffering worse consequences by other inhumane mortals because they believe in my suffering as being justified.
This includes the Police, whom are not forgiven for their transgressions against me, as well as any and all judges whom have degraded me in any way.
Anyone whom has ever caused me harm is also unforgiven.
Those who could act and choose not to are given an ultimatum to either act or be sentenced to Hell.
Those who know they're an exception are recognized as excepted.
But I will say this. My patience for forgiveness is running thin, and those who harm me from now on may or may not be forgiven by me, which is actually worse than not being forgiven by the Altars.
So, am I really a bad person for being realistic? The answer is no, and that is all that needs to be said.
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